babyha-nel47:

jacoblasher:

Too many notes. Too many fucking notes.

Anonymous asked: myarmsareridiculous(.)tumblr(.)com/overcome

I know this was sent to help me. but it honestly feels as if you are taking the piss.

I have been in this pain now for 7yrs. With each episode it gets worse and i get lower. With every episode, i have lost friends and slowly lost interest in everything.

Even if i was happy, there’s nothing viable in my life to live for.
So what is the actual point.

Anonymous asked: Don't kill yourself. Whatever is going on is only temporary-no matter how bad it seems. Don't give up!

My depression, bi- polar, eating disorder have been going on for 7 years+ …  My doctor won’t help.. I told her i wanted to kill myself and she told me to go to the library to get a book to read..
I want help.. but no-one can help me, just knowing that this pain will be with me forever makes me want to slit my throat..

And then with everythign piled on top… I have nothing, i am nothing. no-one will help so they obviously don’t care if i die.

upwardforwardonward asked: Did you ever find out who that girl is? You posted her pictures a ffew days ago, I am curious, too.

No, still no answer.. it’s really frustrating me.

lostinmywinter:

i want to get better but i want to get worse

i want to recover but i dont want to gain weight

i love food so much but i hate eating

i want to keep trying but i want to give up

i know i look terrible but i feel so fat

i know im sick but not sick enough

i want to care for my body but i want to destroy it

i want to be happy but i need to be sad

i want more but i need less

i want to be strong but i need to be frail

i want to live but i dont want to be alive

I want to die, so fucking much.
I was going to kill myself on friday, but i didn’t.

I just want to be recognised in some way before i go.

but people don’t see me.
I could never be known.
I am nothing